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Life is a beach, I'm just playing in the [South Beach] sand.

Over a YEAR since the last time I wrote, so let me fill you in !

I am still working at MANGOS! How's that for stability ?? haha. I have a new roommate.. or 2.. or 3. Lmao. DON'T ASK. My love life is damn near NON existent. I have come to the conclusion that Total Package men do no exist on South Beach. Not that I'm LOOKING... There will be a guy you are passionate with who has your heart, a guy who wines and dines you, a guy you can talk to and just chill with, and a few guys you don't really care for but gives you the attention that the others don't.

I've done a couple music videos, went to many castings, dropped out of college, almost fell into an undercover porn scam, tanned in a G string, fell off a jet ski, partied on a yacht, drank till I threw up, argued with people, chilled with celebrities/athletes, became one with "THE SECRET", saved lots of money, been taken advantage of, lowered my standards, been solicited for sex, been solicited to recruit women for pimps, been hit on by women, got attacked by bed bugs and been really sick. I've cried hard, laughed even harder, blew a lot of money, gotten butterflies, been disgusted, been amazed and witnessed history. Ive hurt some feelings, created a million smiles, gotten goosebumps, prayed to god, had evil satanic thoughts, grew my nails long, sacrificed, thought I was crazy, fell into depression, been high off life, had an adrenaline rush, had my heart broken and conversed with people from all over the world.

South Beach has been one hell of an experience. Its not paradise like everyone thinks it is, but I've been here 16 months so I guess it can't be toooo bad. I've become aware of the strength of my mind, adapted to this crazy environment and stayed as focused as possible. Through all the craziness on this island my dignity remains intact and I still have the same morals I came with. I live super modestly and have sacrificed much, but out here I am FREE. Financially free, stress free (for the most part), emotionally free, spiritually free. I AM FREE.

I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up, but for an indecisive girl like me who can't come up with an ultimate goal, I feel like I'm doing damn good.

Some of the things I have done, I still can't believe. So much to tell, I don't even know where to start. Stay Tuned!

♥ Christa Elise Graziano